Tay Ya Ma & Family
It's been a wee bit of an emotional week for this wee man from Adel .......As well as as facing a battle in relation to my kids , my mother suffered a heart attack and was at deaths door for a while......In true fashion as I have been taught , I reacted angrily when cornered , like the wee school kid in the schoolyard I came out all guns blazing without realising and proceeded to lash out at a few. Now before you say Oh Mummy's boy , let me tell you , this woman is where i learned nay drew all my strength from.......she's like six mac trucks coming at full bore and has endured more pain than I could handle in three lifetimes.....Even in her look at death's door , she was still a mother at 84yrs , worried more of me than herself and then proceeded to kick that death's door shut and say fuck you I aint going anywhere.....She once grabbed a butcher's knife when i was young and well being a boy, and threatened to cut off my balls with the blunt end should i decide to embarrass the family , nay even worse myself....
Usually , I show strength as i have been taught , but this week I crumbled , nay fell of my horse in heavy armour into the mud of culloden moore.......I felt fucked......I lashed out even at a few members on here , but I'm man enough to appologise to Taylor , Foxy & Paris and any others I was not myself. Esp Taylor who i really was a dickhead to and to Foxy for somehow reminding me early this morning of what i am by text.
I dutifully turned my car around , went home disrobed & proceeded to put on my Kilt & Attire , including my knives (sgian dubhs) , my battle dress was on , my armour was on .....I changed in an instant...............I became the man again.... ,it uplifts me ...you have to be a Scot to understand . It is my armour , I feel invincible , it's like your wearing the whole of your countryman on your breast and you can never back down or be defeated. It makes me feel a winner . I wanted to wear my battle gear all day , but in that 30 mins or so I was fucking back I had been restored. At that moment i could of charged heavy artillery without fear nor favour and realised what strength has been instilled in me by my family , I'm lucky....My kids will know of this strength , my son will don the battle armour too in time as an Australian with strong heritage.
Why am I telling you this you ask ?
Two reasons as appology as I stated to some on here and to perhaps give strength to others in their hour of need as we all have life to deal with and it's associated issues. It's the strength we can show in our hours of stress/need that defines us.
As I was once told ....."No matter how hard life is , how bad you feel , how much pain you might be in or feel God or all has desserted you , there is always someone somewhere who is much much worse off than you , so get up & get on with it .........Can you tell who taught me that ? Yes , and she's still fighting and thinking of others first...
So thanks to this little community of ours , it does help and " Lang Ma Ya Lum Reek "
Mav the kilted one
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